A Little Fall of Rain

Fri, 10 Jul 2009 07:25:07 GMT

So both of us are mad for
Nothing, fighting for
Nothin', crying for
Nothing, whoa
But we won't let it go for
Nothing, no not for
Nothing, this should be
Nothing to a love like what we got
Oh baby, I know sometimes it gonna rain
But baby, can we make up now?
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
Can't sleep through the pain
And i don't wanna go to bed mad at you
And i don't want you to go to bed mad at me

Mon, 23 Feb 2009 18:34:23 GMT

and life just keeps on getting worse.....

Sat, 21 Feb 2009 07:35:35 GMT

i hate being 2 and a half hours away from Jeff and not being able to see him on weekends is tough =(

i am so happy that i finally have a job and i can have money, but my reason for wanting money was so i could take trips on weekends to be with my boy and so some weekends he could spend time with me. now i work every saturday and sunday so i won't ever be able to see him.

sometimes i wish i could just drop out of college and say goodbye to everything here just so i could be with the one person who makes me happy 24/7

i miss him so much when he isn't around =,(

Sun, 04 Jan 2009 23:06:11 GMT

i've made up my mind i can't live here anymore
so i am applying to buff state next year
major = undecided
and getting an apartment, but i am going to need a roomie. any takers?

fuck life

Sun, 04 Jan 2009 18:27:13 GMT

so i am at the point where i would rather drop out of school and find a full time job just so i can move our of my house permanently.
i have been searching for a job all during break and can not find one. i don't wanna go back to tim hortons because i hated the hours they use to give me, and plus i dont have time to sit around and do CDs for hours just so i can make 7.50 an hour instead of 7.15.
i hate living at home because i never have my own privacy my parents are always doing something to intrude and i hate it, i don't wanna go back to daemen because i hate that school, but i dont wanna stay here either. and as much as i would love to drop out i know i would get no where in life, so i am stuck living in this miserable house and finishing off my year at a school i hate, at least i have good friends though to help me get through everything. i just wish i had money to go and do things.

Sat, 27 Dec 2008 22:45:27 GMT

suddenly i feel sick

Mon, 15 Dec 2008 05:34:21 GMT

i hate my family i hate them all

Fri, 12 Dec 2008 23:23:59 GMT

so i am home and already my father is yelling at home....
counting down the days until i get to move back to college!

what i've learned

Fri, 12 Dec 2008 17:18:53 GMT

i have learned a lot actually this first semester....
*i have realize who my true friends are and maybe the ones you always thought you were closest to, really weren't that close at all.
*studying really does make a different, i use to never study in HS and just based off what i remembered in class.
*true friends don't judge you
*whats meant to be always finds a way. i use to think maybe that quote was a bunch of shit put together to make things seem like they get easier, when in reality, things that are meant to work always find a way.

i found out this semester who my true friends are and which ones are going to be there for me through thick and thin...and i am glad the ones i found are the ones i have, even though they turned out to be different people then i originally had thought.

i guess i have also realized that yea Jeff and i we may fight, but in the end we are ok and usually by the next day we forgive and forget and that's one of the many things i love about him. and i know with him that if we're meant to be, we will find a way to work through everything.

<3

Thu, 20 Nov 2008 06:16:02 GMT

how is it that no matter how many people are in a room with me unless i am with him i feel all alone

Sun, 09 Nov 2008 22:35:48 GMT

i need a change from buffalo, i am so sick of this place =(

i just want to be somewhere that i feel wanted and not so alone.

Sat, 08 Nov 2008 04:33:00 GMT

why do i let everything get to me and bring me down. i am such a downer all the time now. i show my emotions so easily i wear them on my sleeve. i wish he knew how much i really do care and love him still. i just wanna be with him again.

ao i have realized my birthday is in 10 days and its gonna be the worst ever. its the first one without my friends around, without jeff and without my grandma. i can't believe its been a year since she had her surgery and its been roughly a half a year without her, things just arn't the same anymore.

boy is my life a mess =(

at the end of every storm there is a rainbow....but this must be one heavy storm i'm living in

Thu, 06 Nov 2008 07:03:00 GMT

i just don't know how to handle things anymore. there is only one boy in my life that i would do anything for and i don't think he realizes how much i love and care about him. he was always all i ever wanted even before i knew him staring at him during study hall freshman year and sophomore year before i knew him talking to him/waiting up online every night. when we finally started dating i was the luckiest girl in the world and yea we hit our bumps and breakups here and there but we always made it we grew stronger and more in love. and now when it seems like this could really be the end i start to die on the inside because i would still do anything for him.

all i want in life is a way to get him back....and i have no idea how i will ever be able to accomplish this task =(

Thu, 06 Nov 2008 03:25:29 GMT

idk what to do since i keep on falling for him over and over i just hope things really do end up going back to the way things use to be like we have been talking about.

sad

Mon, 13 Oct 2008 05:06:20 GMT

is it wrong to of had such an amazing weekend and now to be jealous its over and for him to be back with his friends when i wish i was with him.

i feel as though he is perfect for me, and i hope i am for him or at least that i was.

i would give the world to go back to the way things were =(

Mon, 06 Oct 2008 04:58:01 GMT

You Would Be a Good Spouse 85% of the Time

You have what it takes to be an amazing wife or husband.

You are caring, patient, giving, and romantic. You are willing to work for a marriage.

More than anything, you're not about to let your ego ruin a relationship.

You are humble and unselfish. And that's the key to being a good spouse.

Would You Be a Good Wife or Husband?

can't i be happy?

Mon, 06 Oct 2008 04:53:27 GMT

sometimes i just don't know what to do...or how to handle the things life has thrown at me. i feel just like giving up sometimes, but yet i know i should never give up because giving up is for failures.

my life just pretty much all together sucks and i wish that i was able to rewind time.

i can't handle everything going on

"Nothing feels right when I'm not with you
sick of this dress and these Jimmy Choo's.
Taking them off cause I feel a fool
tryna dress up when I'm missin you.
Ima step out this lingerie
curl up in a ball with something Hanes.
In bed I lay
with nothing but your t-shirt on

Hey
gotta be strong, gotta be strong but I'm
really hurting now that your gone. I
thought maybe I'd do some shopping
but I couldn't get past the door and,

now i dont know, now i dont know if I,
ever really gon let you go.
and I couldn't even leave my apartment
stripped down torn up about it. "

sometimes i wonder

Sat, 04 Oct 2008 02:48:02 GMT

was i not good enough for him
could i of embarrassed him
did i not show him enough love
or was my love to much
what else could i of done
to of made things work

i am still very confused if i will ever get to be with my love again

such a lonely cold fall day

Fri, 03 Oct 2008 16:41:28 GMT

so i don't think many people know why i have been sad, moody and putting depressing away messages up. Well Jeff decided that we needed a break from one another for right now. it makes me really sad to think about it because i love him so much and miss him more then ever because we are 2 and a half hours away from one another. sometimes i wish i could just drive to him to talk about things, but i know i can't.

i also wish i had my friends here because i could really use them right now.

anyways that is the reason for all the sad away messages.

the colloege plague

Fri, 05 Sep 2008 06:18:23 GMT

so Kimmy and i were just making macaroni and cheese and wrote the college plagues

God said to the college kids

thou shalt sweat like no other, and then thou shalt break out in zits like thou hast never had before.
you shall also fart all the time and shit for a week straight like never before
tho shalt also quote Dane Cook at 2A.M and thou shalt think its the funniest shit ever.....I JUST CAME
Then thou shalt walk down windsper to find a party and almost get shot then drive home in the back seat with of a cop car.
and if you survive all those thou shalt send you the indian teacher who doesnt speak english.

these are the plagues for college students

miss you

Thu, 24 Apr 2008 00:27:04 GMT

http://obit.amigonefuneralhome.com/obitdisplay.html?id=536323&listing=Current

the link above is my grandmothers obituary.she died last night and it has all the information of her wake and funeral arrangements. i would greatly appreciate seeing friendly faces if you feel comfortable coming.

thank you

everything seems to be going wrong in my life

Tue, 05 Feb 2008 16:38:23 GMT

*right before school started my guinea pig who was like my baby had to get put to sleep.
*well back in october my grandma was real sick and was in the hospital til december then she was put into a nursing home for therapy to help her regain strength and now she is coming home saturday.
*in november my boy and i brokeup =(
*i didn't make the musical as a dancer or for that matter get a part. and soon after i had to quit my senior year show.
*i have to spend close to $600 that i don't have to fix my car cuz of the scratches in it and i need to save the money to buy a computer for college.
*and last but not least. my dad went inot the hospital yesterday and they don't know whats wrong with him.
*i was wokenup around 1:45 only to have to leave my house cuz there was a gas leak. and wasn't able to go back to bed til 3:30 and then i missed school cuz of it.

what a great year it has been so far.

12 days of lancaster

Fri, 21 Dec 2007 19:37:55 GMT

1 short freshman
2 broken noses
3 times the drama
4 togas
50 stolen huggies
6000 degree bonfire
7 periods with no snacks
8 weeks with no passes
9 passed out seniors
10 dollars in the bank
11 hungry seniors
12 sitting seniods

Sun, 02 Dec 2007 03:57:24 GMT

things just don't ever seem to be getting better... only worse

Jeff

Fri, 30 Nov 2007 03:13:09 GMT

there is this boy he may not be mine anymore but i do love him quiet a lot actually and i would give anything to have him back. i really do not think i could ever get over him. he means absolutely everything to me and so much more. no matter what i say or do he never gets it that i really want him back in my life and i would give anything to see that smile or face again. he is simply amazing and i want to be with him again. i could spend the rest of my life with him i just know that i could if he gave me the chance to show him i could be better and stop the lies that i do.

so Jeff if you read this i really mean it. just give me that chance.